For years we’ve lived life in a haze that we thought was clear. It took a generous act of God to show us that our clarity was little more than short moments of low blood alcohol content and time between fixes. God has shown us the door to true clarity and it took us a tremendous amount of courage to walk through it. Now we have learned, one day at a time, that we must fight the good fight every day for the rest of our lives in order to maintain a visible and progressive future. This fight, my friends, is no easy task. We are asking ourselves to go to war with a powerful force that once controlled our every move. This force seduced us with its promises of good feelings and superhuman wit. It drove us to the bottom of the barrel. Where we drowned willingly. Down there we found that the good feelings gave way to guilt and sorrow. The superhuman wit revealed itself to be nothing more than transparent excuses. We found the bottom to be very dark. And none of our friends or family followed us down, so we found “friends” already down there. If we were the lucky ones, they threw us a line and tried to fish us out. But only those of us at the end of our own rope grabbed on.
Remember that feeling, the feeling of being drowned by your own actions and distorted judgment, the feelings of isolation and anger at life. Because if you think you are strong enough to stay sober through willpower alone after completing drug rehab, I strongly urge you to think again. Once the drug rehab or 12 step program has run its course and sent us back into the world sober and fresh, we say hello again to our friends and family. We tell them everything we’ve learned and how good we feel. Then we must swallow our pride and ask them for help. You cannot stay sober by willpower alone!
The seduction begins as a subtle whisper in your ear. Someone asks if you’d like a drink. You say you don’t drink. Someone holds out a joint. You say you don’t smoke. But your body begins to tell you another story. The urge begins to build and it tells you that you’ve done such a great job that you deserve a little drink. Amnesia kicks in and you think… One drink, one drink wont kill me… Where is your willpower now? You are battling the demon, and without an army, you will lose.
Our friends and family are a great start, but we cannot rely solely on people who have not experienced our battle. That’s why it should be a Priority, as soon as we walk out the doors of drug rehab, to seek out a 12 step community. Programs like AA and NA work, but we cannot stay sober on willpower alone. A 12 step community puts a demon fighting army right at our side. The community gives us people to relate to. You help yourself stay sober by helping others stay sober. Online you can chat with others in the community and share profiles. Create network of sober people who have gone through exactly what you have. A 12 step community gives you friends you never knew you could have with a sober life. This is ever so important.
We now live our lives one day at a time. These days are clear and hopeful, no matter how hard they can be. We get through it. While we must hold on to our willpower, it is only one nail in the house we are working to build. And without a community helping us build that house, the walls will never hold up against the inevitable storm. Amen.
From: An Inspired Reader